Then after all the fighting and how much he hurts me… I just need someone to talk to about it… then I remeber I really have no friends here.. so it makes it hurt even more…. but I just had the best feeling for a few seonds…. Caleb Mackenize just texted me and he let me tell him what was the matter…. who would of thought that would have made me so happy…. I dont even talk to him, but fianlly let something off my chest…..
Some times I just wish i had the nerve to cut myslef open… I hate my life… no matter what people I love, hurt me… Espically him.. after all I’ve been through with him.. you think I would have left my now.. but I can’t it’s too hard… he’s like a blessing and a curse. I just sometimes wish that I could die and just be open in heaven where I know people cant hurt me… seems so easy doesnt it?
